Clearly Unfocused

summer songs

I just unearthed some GarageBand gems from the past several years.  Mostly just covers of random songs with an out of tune piano: Falling Slowly from Once, My Girls by Animal Collective, Animal by Miike Snow… but also some original songs that I mostly recorded during the spring of senior year, when I first had a laptop. 

I think I’m going to try to re-record some of those songs and make them listenable (at least for Tumblr) and send them out into the Tumblrsphere this summer.

Real talk.

5 little known facts about me (kurby)

Sophie did this, and I have time to kill on a rainy day.  Also, making lists is not only therapeutic but probably my favorite hobby.  Honestly.  I just wrote in my journal and made a list of memories from my childhood spent in my old house.  It went on for three pages with no spaces between each item.  I like love lists.

So, this is partly for me and partly for you, one of my Tumblr followers.  Whoever you are, I hope this helps you know me a bit better.

1. I have a half-brother who exists (I think/hope/feel) somewhere in the world.  I only have one picture of him, and it’s really dark and blurry and he’s just a small onesie-wearing blob in the background.  But sometimes I think about him and I think about the continent I came from and the life I could have had.  Those moments are always either really crippling, because I feel paralyzed by the weight of my own emotions toward people I have never known, or empowering, because I am reminded of the reality of fate and the threads that keep all humans sewn closely together no matter how far away they really are from each other.  Lately, I’ve been thinking about my biological family a lot - not in a pining, wistful sort of way, but a slightly frightened, urgent sort of way.  I’ve always wrestled with the idea of visiting Korea and trying to find my parents, and though that’s not exactly what I want to do right now, it is something that steals sleep from me every few nights.

2. I hate being right next to frying bacon or grilling meat.  I always feel like I’m getting coated in a greasy film.  Waking up to the smell of bacon is stressful, because I have to jump out of bed to make sure my dresser drawers are shut tight and my closet door is closed so that none of my clothes are permeated with the smells.  If I’m forced to walk through a grilling smoke cloud, I hold my breath and power walk.

3. Hospitals, dentists, and other usually-avoided places are strangely soothing to me.  I think it’s because I appreciate quiet, sterile places.  It’s hard to find them in the real world.

4. I really enjoy books that go into a lot of details about battles, architecture, and technical specifications.  One series that fits this bill entirely is Redwall.  So, yes. I like reading about badgers and shrews and the process of making an archer’s bow and the prowess of expert battle mice.

5. I hate the stigma that surrounds “eating feelings” and all the stupid GIFs that float around Tumblr about being a fat lonely person who just wants to eat cake on a Friday night.  There should be a clear difference between eating to block out other feelings and eating to calm down and relax.  I wholly believe in the power of making and eating good food to heal the soul.

sirvanderbeek:

Once, there was a puddle that dreamed of evaporating, so it asked the sun to help it out.

GPOY today.

Happy Pillow Day 2012!

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For me, this is a true story starting around 8:00 pm.  I’m an old lady.

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Today, I’m celebrating a Baker’s Dozen months with Conner.

So, here are 12+1 things I’ve learned along the way:

1. Music is the world’s soul, dancing in ways nothing else can.
2. There is no such thing as owning “too many Pillow Pets.”
3. Sunsets can be hunted.
4. Eating a popsicle for breakfast (at 3:00 pm) is totally legit.
5. Always keep tissues on hand for spontaneous cry breaks.  Sometimes from laughing.  Sometimes from sad things.  Always therapeutic.
6. Hugs make everything better.
7. Cartoons are perfectly suitable for kidults.
8. When smiling, more teeth, more better.
9. Miles and time zones can either be a fence or a bridge in a relationship.  Let distance be a bridge.
10. The DTR is sacred.
11. If you want to increase your running speed, pretend your BF is at the finish line waiting for you with a giant bubble tea. IT WORKS.
12. Make-up is unnecessary.
13. I have strong feelings about Taco Bell.  That is, I’m disgusted by it and never suggest eating it in my presence.

Happy Baker’s Dozen, Conner.  Love you, love :3